Loss of a mother!

God could not be everywhere – so He created Mothers!

When I lost my father in 1999, it was huge setback for me. It was an early death for him and for the 1^st time I visited a crematorium.  I am feeling the void every-day since then. First time in life I understood what death is. Life soon started to come back and we as a family moved on with our “Karma”. I was always worried about how my mother would take it; but was happy that she stood as a strong force for us – the kids and managed whole family very well. She has always in her life has stood as a strong pillar for us and everyone in family and society she impacted.

Coming from a very humble background – both our parents really worked very hard to bring the family to this level. My brother and I were given the best of everything as per their means and they inculcated the best values in us (as they both were teachers – building students and building nation).

Now loss of my mother, Mrs  Saroj Rathi last week on 18^th April has created a bug vacuum in our life. I am really sad as she has also left us at an early age. Now I am more mature and counsel people as Life Coach after my certification from US but this sudden loss has shattered all of us in family. I understand that life must go on and I also believe in God and lessons of Bhagvad Gita but still feel that this is a huge setback for all of us. Most relatives and friends would be there for a short while but this incident would remain with us forever.

Now I realised that I have suddenly become big and I also have to act & behave as a “grown up” as for most of the societal, family and personal issues we were so dependent on mummy that we never bothered to worry about that “she will take care and guide us”.

These instances of life also help you to learn about many things in life – about how people really are; how society acts; role of elders; challenges of managing a family and many more. Being a sensitive and emotional person, I am feeling the responsibility of managing the family and youngsters and also control myself in front of them. I am already feeling the big void that this incident has created in our life.

Our kids are feeling the loss too as they have lived so closely with her. My mother was a strong pillar and always gave us courage and comfort that she is there to take care. Even after her death, she donated her eyes for others to be benefited.

In last couple of years we have tried our level best to give her the comfort and love but realised that Mother is a unique creation of God which is always there to give her love and comfort than ask for it.

While going to Haridwar, I understood the cycle of life or journey as people call it – when we are born a Mother carries us in her arm with love and care and now I was carrying her ashes in my hand to be immersed in Ganga.

I pray to God to give her soul, peace and love and bless all of us forever and help us by guiding us to follow the righteous path shown by our parents!